To The Moon & Back

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She's taking her time making up the reasons,
To justify all the hurt inside,
Guess she knows from the smiles and the look in their eyes,
Everyone's got a theory about the bitter one,
They're saying, "Mum never loved her much,
and dad never keeps in touch...
that's why she shies away from human affection".

But somewhere in a private place,
She packs her bags for outer space,
And now she's waiting for the right kind of pilot to come,
And she'll say to him... 
"I would fly to the moon and back if you would be my baby.
I've got a ticket for a world where we belong,
so won't you be my baby?".

She can't remember a time when she felt needed,
if love was red then she was color blind.
All her friends, they've been trialed for treason
in crimes that were never defined. She's saying,
"Love is like a barren place and reaching out for human faith,
it's like a journey I just don't have a map for".
So she's gonna take a dive and push shift to overdrive,
Send a signal that she's hanging all her hopes on the stars...
What a pleasant dream!

[To The Moon & Back - Savage Garden]

An Obsolete Idea?

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When i think about religion (any religion), i immediately become uncomfortable with the idea. I come from a conservative Islamic society where to question any of the scripture or established 'truths' means that you are questioning God himself. It also leads to charges of blasphemy that create a whole other set of problems for people with unsatisfied curiosity or those who just disagree with a particular distortion in that religion.

From whatever I've seen in my own life, read about past generations, cultures and civilizations, i have come to the following simpleton conclusions:


  • Whatever man cannot explain due to a lack of an accumulated body of knowledge, he ascribes to a supernatural being (God). As time passes, that body of knowledge grows and is sometimes able to explain these occurrences. He then tries to reconcile those religious ideas with the new findings but it creates an even bigger mess than what we were dealing with earlier. We just can't seem to let go.
  • Man uses religion as a convenience when thinking about the unknown or about stressful situations.
  • Man seems to have created a theology in which he is the highest form of God's creation and other life forms should bend to his will. I see mankind as an evolutionary marvel albeit a parasite on Earth at the same time. If we think about how we have enslaved other life forms for our own use and amusement, continuously changed the environment to fulfill our immediate desires, it makes me think that mankind follows the distinctive features of a virus which spreads because of its resilience to natural stressors. Again, i cannot fathom a divine scripture that allows the needless enslavement of other life forms. The "take as much as you need and leave the rest" philosophy that the animal kingdom follows doesn't seem to apply to man which makes me believe that mankind has corrupted a sense of balance that nature strives to maintain.
  • Countless bloody wars have been fought in the name of religion where the true issue was power, resources, respect or vengeance. To this day these wars continue because "god wills it". A religion that allows the idea of war in my eyes cannot be divine unless God is amused by the destruction of innocent life which He is not in my mind. War is the manifestation of the desires of groups of humans not some divine decree.
  • Religion has been used as a form of social control for as long as we can trace human life. It has also been used to create a sense of kinship and a bond between people. I have problems with such type of control exerted in the name of a divine being but serving the privileged few instead. For example, any religion that puts one gender above another is completely distorted and perverted from it's true message. This is a classic case of social control on our part. There is absolutely no divinity in unfairness.
  • The intolerance to other people's beliefs ascribed by the many interpretations of a particular religion and the people practicing it make me believe that if ever there was a pure religion, it has now been corrupted beyond repair and hence rendered obsolete. If my neighbor likes to plant daisies in his garden whereas i like to plant tulips, does this mean he is wrong and i am right? Should i shed his blood and destroy his garden because he likes or believes something different? How do his daises affect me?  What have we done with 'free will'? I think religion is the personification of a person's inner beliefs, upbringing and preferences and that these should remain personal. My relationship with God is very personal to me; one in which i will tolerate no outside interference.

    I don't want to follow a particular ideology just because i am expected to or because i was raised in a particular environment. I want to come to terms with what makes sense to me and what doesn't. Blind faith is something i cannot come to terms with - so preachers... no one's home, and reciters...

    لا شيء وقيان مطلق بالكولون ممكن
    (Laa shay'a waqui'n moutlaq bale kouloun moumkine)

    "Where other men blindly follow the truth; remember, nothing is true.
     Where other men are limited by morality or law;  remember, everything is permitted.
    We work in the dark, to serve the light..."

    Boring Wishes

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    Typical, boring and uninspiring Eid wishes
    • "Eid Mubarak and best wishes" 
    • "Eid Mubarak to you and your family"
    Today i got the following text...

    "Wish you peace, love and health, 
     blah blah blah...
     Fuck that shit! Wish you lots of sex, 
     the best babes, the finest alcohol, 
     the longest 'Cigars', strong orgasms 
     and hope you win the fuckin' lottery. 
     Happy Eid!"

    Now here's a friend who truly cares. God bless you :)

    Banana Pancakes

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    Can't you see that it's just raining?
    Ain't no need to go outside...
    But baby, you hardly even notice,
    When I try to show you,
    This song is meant to keep ya,
    From doing what you're supposed to,
    Like waking up too early,
    Maybe we can sleep in?
    I'll make you banana pancakes,
    Pretend like it's the weekend now.

    And we could pretend it all the time,
    Can't you see that it's just raining?
    Ain't no need to go outside.

    The telephone is singing ringing,
    It's too early, don't pick it up,
    We don't need to,
    we got everything we need right here,
    And everything we need is enough,
    Just so easy...
    When the whole world fits inside of your arms,
    Don't really need to pay attention to the alarm,
    Wake up slow, yeah wake up slow.

    [Banana Pancakes - Jack Johnson]
    [Chords & Tabs]

    Hurt

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    I hurt myself today to see if I still feel,
    I focus on the pain; the only thing that's real,
    The needle tears a hole; the old familiar sting,
    Try to kill it all away but I remember everything,

    What have I become? My sweetest friend,
    Everyone I know goes away in the end,
    And you could have it all; my empire of dirt,

    I will let you down,
    I will make you hurt.

    I wear this crown of thorns upon my liar's chair,
    Full of broken thoughts; I cannot repair,
    Beneath the stains of time; the feelings disappear,
    You are someone else; I am still right here.

    What have I become? My sweetest friend,
    Everyone I know goes away in the end,
    And you could have it all; my empire of dirt,

    I will let you down,
    I will make you hurt.

    If I could start again,
    A million miles away,
    I would keep myself,
    I would find a way.

    [Hurt (NIN Cover) - Johnny Cash]

    Erase / Rewind

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    Hey, what did you hear me say?
    You know the difference it makes,
    What did you hear me say?
    Yes, I said it's fine before,
    But I don't think so no more,
    I said it's fine before,
    I've changed my mind,
    I take it back,

    Erase and rewind,
    'cause I've been changing my mind,                    
    Erase and rewind
    'cause I've been changing my mind,
    I've changed my mind.

    [Erase / Rewind - The Cardigans]

    Hum Pehlay Hi Bahut Zakmi Hai

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    "A Pakistan police officer uses a baton to control flood victims looting donated food from a bus in Azakhel - Pakistan (Aug 8, 2010)"

    Why do my people inflict violence upon each other? We all belong to the same land; we share the same traditions, customs and beliefs; we spring from the same soil and perish into the same dust... so why do my people hurt each other? 

    Apno par haath uthana bhaut asaan ho giya hai humaray liay... kyu mairay bhaion? kyu aik dosray ko zakaam daytay ho? hum pehlay hi bahut zakmi hai :(

    As The Rush Comes

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    Traveling somewhere; could be anywhere,
    There's a coldness in the air but i don't care,
    We drift deeper; life goes on,
    We drift deeper into the sound,

    Feeling strong...

    So bring it on...

    [As The Rush Comes (Gabriel & Dresden) - Motorcycle]

    Why You Wanna Trip On Me?

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    0:55 to 1:13 <=> Pure genius.




    Apparently, no one was listening.

    They say I'm different; They don't understand,
    But there's a bigger problem that's much more in demand,
    You've got world hunger; Not enough to eat,
    So there's really no time to be trippin' on me.

    You've got school teachers who don't wanna teach,
    You've got grown people who can't write or read,
    You've got strange diseases but there's no cure,
    You've got manic doctors that aren't so sure,
    So tell me...
    Why you wanna trip on me?

    We've got more problems than we'll ever need,
    You've got gang violence and bloodshed on the street,
    You've got homeless people with no food to eat,
    With no clothes on their back and no shoes for their feet.

    We've got drug addiction in the minds of the weak,
    We've got so much corruption; police brutality,
    We've got streetwalkers walkin' in the darkness,
    Tell me what are you doing to try to stop this?
    Why you wanna trip on me?

    [Why You Wanna Trip On Me (Unplugged) - Micheal Jackson]

    We are the people of this struggling land, Let my people go.

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    "It’s been a long night in our peaceful cities, It’s been a long night and we're battered and bruised, I have seen us looking a lot better, My heart breaks when i remember you. Who says we can’t be free? From all of the things that we used to be, Re-write our history, Who says we can’t be free?" [Adapted from 'Who Says']


    Friday, 28 May, 2010
    Lahore suffers an attack on two Ahmedi mosques during Jumu'ah. 80+ innocents dead. Thousands of lives severely affected. Elite still safe and having korma for dinner.


    These people go out everyday and pay bills, they work hard during the day at whatever life they have built for themselves. In the evenings, they come home to their families and have dinner together. They sleep and prepare for the next day to come. They live day to day because they have no other options. There is no other way of life. They are a people who have been abandoned by those who were to lead them. Hey mr. foot-soldier, their well fed, sheltered and protected lives are unchanged by your actions. Your actions have failed you, as your people have failed you. Don't go, come have a smoke with me.

    You and your friends band together out of a feeling of loss. you eat together, you pray together and you memorize excerpts from a book in a foreign language. You don't know what the words mean but they are considered sacred and there is a sense of purpose to be had in believing in them. You establish community meeting places... the caretakers of these establishments see a group of misguided souls and they feel that there is power to be had here. They start herding you. Slowly this community becomes the center of your world. You feel like you belong to something. Something possibly pure, something glorious... The deep rollers and their over bearing personalities start to control social behavior. You are now part of the hive. They will protect you and you will be their tool.

    You are told that there are people living in another part of the world who suppress you and are evil. They are keeping us from achieving greatness. We were great once. That was 1,400 years ago when we were kings. We should be kings again. Wouldn't that be nice? But those evil people we can't control because they are too far away... so for now, let's just deal with the next best thing.. lets go to the market and hurt the people there. This will send a clear message to all governments. We will be considered a force and people will listen to our ideas and will do as we mean. So you go into the market, you pick places of worship because people are at their weakest there.. the same things you claim you fight for you destroy. Oh this is a different sect! Their mythology is slightly different than ours.. it's their fault they were born into these communities and raised to believe something. They intended us harm when they chose to live a certain way. Let's start with them.

    So you go and spray bullets on innocent people who are just living their lives trying to make ends meet in a difficult world. You kill them because they do not belong to your established community so they are lesser human beings. If they die.. it's nothing to us. Wait. Do you hear those cries? Now there is a child somewhere that has lost a father. There is a mother somewhere who has lost a partner. She needed him to help raise her family. She has lost her support. Do you hear that? There is a mother weeping for her child. She will never see her child, hold him or see how her future unfolds. She has lost a part of herself. She has lost a reason for living. Is that what you are fighting for? To rule a nation of people with broken wills and battered hearts? Instead of ruling the people you so crave, you have left us with nothing but sorrow and heartbreak. The very land you wish to make 'pure' you have soiled with your menace. You have reduced it's beauty. We are declining and you are driving us there. I feel the wave of depression that you unleashed millions of miles away... you and your friends have lost your humanity.

    And you fat, gutless leaders who hide in their homes and travel in their motorcades... you who want to lead us have sold out your own people. You are drunk on the false sense of power. You want monuments dedicated to your egos... your zaat, your menacing lineage. You must hate this country with a passion... you must hate the people that surrounded you... i have no other explanation for you.
    I am from a land with great potential. With warm hearted and hard working people. There is a certain sense of civility missing though... honesty, patience and tolerance are not appreciated enough. We're not straight arrows but we have the potential to be great. We need strong charismatic people with progressive ideas to help guide us. It's not that you are not smart. You have proved your mettle while trying to attain office. It's not that you are inept because you understand the people and what they respond to. So it's probably the lack of desire to help your people. The lack of empathy and interest needed to do your job. It's a lifestyle for you. Somebody else will do the nation building part. I am ashamed to recognize you as a Pakistani. I am ashamed that you are part of my people.

    So mr. foot-soldier and mr fat and gutless, have mercy on us, let us be, let us live good lives... let us breathe and eat and share the warmth that we have to offer. Help us believe in ourselves. Let my people go.

    One Headlight

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    Well this place is old,
    It feels just like a beat up truck,
    I turn the engine, but the engine doesn't turn,
    Well it smells of coffee cups and cigarettes,
    This place is always such a mess.
    Sometimes I think I'd like to watch it burn,
    I'm lost and I feel just like somebody else,
    Man, I ain't changed, but I know I ain't the same,
    But somewhere here in between
    the city walls of dyin' dreams,
    I think his death it must be killin' me.

    Hey, come on try a little,
    Nothing is forever,
    There's got to be something better
    than in the middle,
    But me and Cinderella,
    We put it all together,
    We can drive it home,
    With one headlight.

    [One Headlight - The Wallflowers]

    Me & Julio

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    The mama pajama rolled out of bed,
    And she ran to the police station,
    When the papa found out he began to shout,
    And he started the investigation,
    Its against the law!
    It was against the law,
    What the mama saw,
    It was against the law!

    The mama looked down and spit on the ground,
    Every time my name gets mentioned,
    The papa said oy if I get that boy,
    I'm gonna stick him in the house of detention!
    Well I'm on my way now,
    I don't know where I'm going,
    I'm on my way now,
    I'm taking my time but i don't know where.

    [Me & Julio - Simon & Garfunkel]

    Awesome Finger picking

    Out Of Exile

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    When I first came to this island,                                 
    That I called by my own name,
    I was happy in this fortress,
    In my exile I remained,
    But the hours grew so empty,
    And the ocean sent her waves,
    In the figure of a woman,
    And she pulled me out to sea.

    [Out of Exile - Audioslave]

    I Am The Highway

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    Pearls and swine bereft of me,
    Long and weary my road has been,                             
    I was lost in the cities,
    Alone in the hills,
    No sorrow or pity for leaving I feel.

    Friends and liars don't wait for me,
    Because i'll get on all by myself,
    I put millions of miles,
    Under my heels,
    And still too close to you i feel.

    I am not your rolling wheels,
    I am the highway,
    I am not your carpet ride,
    I am the sky,
    I am not your blowing wind,
    I am the lightning,
    I am not your autumn moon,
    I am the night, the night.

    [I Am The Highway - Audioslave]

    Day And Night

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    Day and night,
    I toss and turn,
    I keep stressing my mind,
    I look for peace but see I don't attain,
    What I need for keeps this silly game we play,
    Now look at this,
    Madness to magnet keeps attracting me,
    I try to run but see I'm not that fast,
    I think I'm first but surely finish last.

    [Day 'N' Nite - Kid Cudi]

    Bachana

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    جگمگتي هووي رات یه ، لب پر هين شکيتين ،
    کوئی نهي مج کو سن رها ، 

     ڈھلتا دیں مجبور ہے ،منزل ذرا دور ہے ، بهج رها امیدوں کا چراگ ،
    ختا هوگي، سزا هوگي ، پرانے دیں یاد این نه ،
    دنیا کے اس شور میں , سکھا ہے مر کے ،هوتي زندگی کیا ،
    میں ڈوب رھا، ڈوب رھا ، بچانا مجهے بچانا ،
    میں ڈوب رھا، ڈوب رھا ، بچانا مجهے بچانا

    fork ( );

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    "If i could carry a tune,
     i would sing for a living,
     And if i could write,
     i would sing of depths within those words,
     But since i can do neither, i write code for a living,
     with the hope that someday the depth of those words
     will create something truly beautiful."

    [Unclustered]

    Deepest Blue

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    The sun will always shine on you,
    You turn my ocean deepest blue,
    I'll never hide my thoughts from you,
    You're my deepest blue.

    [Deepest Blue (Jon Hopkins Mix) - Deepest Blue]

    Waiting On The World To Change

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    Me and all my friends,
    We're all misunderstood,
    They say we stand for nothing and
    There's no way we ever could.

    Now we see everything that's going wrong,
    With the world and those who lead it,
    We just feel like we don't have the means
    To rise above and beat it.

    So we keep waiting,
    Waiting on the world to change,
    We keep on waiting,
    Waiting on the world to change.

    We keep on waiting,
    Waiting on the world to change.

    [Waiting on the world to change - John Mayer]

    From Mellow To Jell-O

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    In three easy steps...