Everything I Need

It doesn't matter if I'm qualified,                              
Or if I ever learn to blow your mind,
I've got everything I need,
I'm not looking for a place to shine,
I wake up and I'm satisfied,
I've got everything i need.

So even if you wanted to,
You can't save me, you can't fail me,
I'm back up on my feet baby,
On the way down is when i found out,
I've got everything i need.

[Everything i need - The Wallflowers]

I Won't Back Down

Well I won't back down,
No I won't back down,
You can stand me up at the gates of hell,
But I won't back down.

No I'll stand my ground, won't be turned around,
And I'll keep this world from draggin' me down,
gonna stand my ground... and I won't back down.

Hey baby, there ain't no easy way out
Hey I will stand my ground... and I won't back down.

Well I know what's right, I got just one life,
in a world that keeps on pushin' me around,
but I'll stand my ground... and I won't back down.

[I won't back down - Tom Petty]

WTF Pakistan?

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Blind servants of faith

"If everyone agrees that we are weak, lowly, foolish, and despised, this is the first step in understanding that we are sinners. Knowing that we are sinners helps us realize that we need His grace."

[Joseph Lee - Christian E-mail Ministry]

On being foolish: Yes, humans are foolish... we hate and burn others at the stake for things that we don't understand or do not want to understand. When time reveals that we were ignorant, only then do we believe but give no apology or compensation to those we have wronged for the sake of safeguarding our ignorance.

On being lowly: Admitting to your limitations and the supremacy of God, nature and the laws of the universe serves to keep us humble (as it should) but how humble are we in reality? As a race, we are not very humble at all. I believe in respecting one's fellow humans and the environment that sustains us. You cannot respect these things till you learn to respect yourself and others around you. And I'm not referring to the kind of respect that vanishes when asked why one approach / religion is better than other. At this time, we display a sense of arrogance and self-righteousness. Therefore we are not lowly. We are actually very full of ourselves, our cultures, our heritage, our blah blah blah.

On being despised: I believe that the world does despise humans. If the Earth or the creatures that live here could talk, we would come to realize how despised we really are. We multiply and deplete the Earth's resources, force free animals in slavery, treat them and the Earth harshly and as our personal property. We go out when we please leaving our pets in cages or trapped within 4 walls so we don't lose ownership of them. All creatures are meant to be free... humans should look onto themselves and realize that we have evolved into the deadliest virus the Earth has ever known.

On being sinners: We are not born as sinners. We are born with a clean slate. It is up to us how we spend our lives... as sinners or as good human beings. The idea of labeling an innocent new born as a sinner is repulsive to me. Surely you would not label an infant a sinner? We do not inherit the sins of our fathers or our nation, we only choose to acquire them.

State of emergency

The reptilians have called an emergency meeting... go to tactical alert!

A chemical reaction

Whats about the female form is so attractive? Why is there beauty no matter what the format? is it ingrained? or is it a chemical reaction? is it the skin? the hair gently caressing the shoulders? is it just crossed legs or the poise with which they are crossed? what about each individual imperfection is so alluring? is it because it makes them real? why does a buggy o/s turn a woman into just a gender? what about their intelligence and support make you content? why does the most minimal of slights to them generate the will to fight? why would you give up everything for them? what about honoring a woman makes you a stronger man? why are you incomplete without your 'one'? is it our body's way of telling us we skipped dinner?

Teray liyay

Teray liyay hai mera dil, meri jaan,
Hotey hain to ho fasley darmeeyan.

Teray liyay hai mera dil, meri jaan,
Hotey hain to ho fasley darmeeyan.

Aapney aghaz sey aaj tuk zindagi,
Teri hee soch mein gum rahee,
Phir bhee janey mujhey kyoun yeh ehsaas hai,                        
Jaisey chahat meri kum rahee.

Teray liyay hai mera dil, meri jaan.

Aayey gee eik baar khogayee jo bahar,
Mein isee aaas mein jeeyoun ga,
Khud sey wada hai yeh hain irada hai yeh,
Tu suney na suney mein khahoun ga hooo.

Teray liyay hai mera dil, meri jaan.

[Teray Liyay - Vital Signs]

Where is the revolution?

So Musharraf declared martial law!

I don't know what the fuss is all about.... it's not like Pakistan is facing this situation for the first time and its not as if everyone didn't know that it was already a military rule... why are people sending me petitions to sign?

I hate armchair politics and activism even more than i hate armchair sportsmen... get up and do something about it... if not now, study, learn and then lead our people... better yet, teach the new generation how to change their ways... i cant stand this auntie tea time type of resistance...

What are our teachers doing? Where are my people headed? Why are we always ready to fight everyone and never ready to learn?

Gloom

How does your day feel when you wake up to darkness?
The haze hides from you all the lights in the room,
The kettle sits exhausted from brewing pick-me-ups all night,
it would like to rest now, so would i...

[Unclustered]

Who Says?

Youth, freedom, sunny California days, old memories, new beginnings...

Who says I can’t get stoned?                                      
Turn off the lights and the telephone,
Me and my house alone,
Who says I can’t get stoned?

Who says I can’t be free?
From all of the things that I used to be,
Re-write my history,
Who says I can’t be free?

It’s been a long night in Redwood City,
It’s been a long night in San Mateo too,
I don’t remember you looking any better,
But then again I don’t remember you.
...
Who says I can’t get stoned?
Plan a trip to Amsterdam alone,
Doesn’t matter if I even go,
Who says I can’t get stoned?

It’s been a long night in Redwood City,
It’s been a long time since 20 too,
I don’t remember you looking any better,
But then again I don’t remember you.

[Who Says (Edited) - John Mayer]

And Samson Said...

The passage of days makes you stronger,
The will to endure makes you a warrior,
The love you bequeath makes you a martyr,
But to me you will always be a woman.

A woman so radiant she makes the world kneel,
A lover so gentle, she makes my scars heal,
A sinner so noble, in me she breathes new life,
A woman so caring, my muse and secret might.

This long awaited road, a new age has finally begun,
Together we conquer our fears, two lives lived as one,
A beautiful beginning, live out this love we can,
I will always be at your side,
Because you make me strive to be a better man.

[Unclustered]

Gypsies

In a state of bliss, a gentle kiss,
I took from her what's mine,
A companion to pain, joy and shame,
A beam of light precedes her,
Hand in hand, a victorious clan,
What love is there that binds us?
We seek and play our artistic games,
Weaving a web of lore behind us,

Whiff, sniff, a mournful kiss,
The light in us shines brighter,
Stumble, bumble, but still walking straight,
The scent of our skins aligning our fate,
High-tech machines and lazy German afternoons,
We hail them higher and look on,

Traveling, telling fortunes,
My world, my devotion,
Its all for you.

[Unclustered]

Lazy Eye

Look into my lazy eye,
Do you see the mist and haze?
Lethargically it looks back at you,
Flutters and avoids your skeptic gaze.
Come look into my left eye,
Intoxicated on life's merry ways,
It shows no ambition, it's just passing time,
Almost as if it was once deeply scathed.

So look into my lazy eye,
For three decades it has been on display,
It lays bare now before your contempt,
It pleads for you to stay,
So look now into my left eye,
Misunderstood with a heart of gold,
A fallen soldier in a misplaced battle,
You cast it and it assumes the mold.

And once you are done,
Look towards my right eye,
Vigilant and guarded, It has been watching you,
A master planner, the chief thief,
It has been loathing you for judging me!

[Unclustered]

I Am Stone

Would you cherish heaven,
If heaven was made of guilt?
Would you cherish a child,
If his fate was made of foul skin?                                      

Would it be a wonder,
If you chose to give in?

[Unclustered]

Pattoki

Mai sochia mai Pattoki jawa,
Manji taay bai kar mai paurathay khawa,      
Naal mai thandy thandy lassi urawa,
Khaitan wich mai hal chalawa,
Mooli gajar da salan banwa,
Waikha mai pind di kakian di chaal,
Poondi karni? Tay chal mairay naal!

[Unclustered]

The Lines On My Face Spell R-A-G-E

Hard work you have not in your bones,
Preying upon unsuspecting others,
Your own you don't hold,
A parasite of trusting minds.

You think that you're cunning, the ways of inadequacy,
You have no clue to what it is i truly hold,
I can run faster than you and jump higher than you,
I can overcome your kind with mere wit and charm,
Its true that learned people can cause the most harm.

Standing in the shadows, i watch every one of your schemes,
My own amusement lets you wander free,
I have lived your life and seen only too well your ways,
But i have also grown older, wiser and less malicious,
To let myself wander astray.

[Cluster VI]

Flatline

(The Sunshine Child)

Put back the wooden planks on your window,
Drown out the light in favor of that familiar darkness,
Then sink back into the corner from where you mourn life,
Be still little child, these strange days have come to an end.

So worry not my sunshine child,
There is room enough for happiness,
Now dry your tears and attempt a smile,
Make our hearts pound and ours eyes collapse,
There is still room enough for happiness.

[Cluster VI]

The Voices Within...

Worry not my good friend,
The water fades out through all eyes,
Burn, yearn and then burn again your desire to thrive,
Resting in the shallow waters of a land revived,
All hope is lost and all fears have gone,
The pain subsides and the wrath child mourns.

Splinters of this shattered mirror,
Float on the shores of a lifeless waste,
We have come so far behind these far reaching walls,
With darkened eyes and painfully swallowed aches.

What is this i hear?
You still ache to swim through your isolationist holes?

Then halt!
Scale up your protective walls,
And seal this intrusion up tight,
Then sink back to the cold fungus floor,
Dawn again your shackles and own again your control,
Escape is futile, and desire pointless,
Child, where else can you escape to?

On this beach shall isolation keep you warm,
Its fire breeding a simple poisoned grace,
Sneak past the shallow richness of the world,
Breathe out the wonder of the constellations you trace.
For out here in the perimeter there are no stars,
Out here you will only find yourself.

[Cluster VI]

Apocalypse Seizures

Feverish fears alight in 'dawn's new gaze',
What is to become of
this revolution we contemplate?
The drugs in our systems that free our thoughts,
Give us meaning and expose our faults.

The shackles we live in,
Our acceptance of preordained fate,
Not by God but by a mortal's affairs of state,
Is that all we live for?
To walk in pre-established files?
Is one's life so worthless
and this resistance a crime?

I want the 'richness'
written in all its overwhelming forms,
To live within the true realm of God
outside our apartheid norm.
The asylums we were promised,
voided by the demons we mourn,
Flaw in humanity's evolution,
the cliches carved on our tombstones.

To the sunshine child who thrives in this world,
Won't you taste my darkness
and make its optimism known?
There is far more to this side
than your kinfolk can see,
A vast ocean of spirituality
that makes me what i be.

So look within dear sunshine child,
And appreciate the pure God given truths,
Understand yourself, find your peace,
So that one day soon you may
pledge your remains to the truce.

[Cluster VI]

Wars Of Chastity

*
Ode to none but God alone,
Past tense of misery, my brother i mourn,
The scars i keep concealed from harm,
Will drive me straight towards my lord's outstretched arms.

- 10/01/2001

*
The future brings what only God may bring,
Turn to Him and weigh your offerings,
Freedom of thought and purity of soul,
These are the words that were always foretold,
The Ace of Spades is solely God's domain,
Science and religion, the king buried deep within,
Fingerprints of spirituality into which all life fades,
While we take out place as the Jack and Queen of Spades.

- 09/21/2001

*

The scars of faith have been washed away,
The worth of words has a new fall from grace,
The wrath of time has drained me 'still',
The wounds remain but the demon's grace fulfilled.

- 10/03/2001

*
Shine through the words you long to say,
Expel from your heart the non-believer's dismay,
They mean you no harm,
They just don't see,
What you are or what you long to be.

- 10/02/2001

[Cluster VI]