The Voices Within...

Worry not my good friend,
The water fades out through all eyes,
Burn, yearn and then burn again your desire to thrive,
Resting in the shallow waters of a land revived,
All hope is lost and all fears have gone,
The pain subsides and the wrath child mourns.

Splinters of this shattered mirror,
Float on the shores of a lifeless waste,
We have come so far behind these far reaching walls,
With darkened eyes and painfully swallowed aches.

What is this i hear?
You still ache to swim through your isolationist holes?

Then halt!
Scale up your protective walls,
And seal this intrusion up tight,
Then sink back to the cold fungus floor,
Dawn again your shackles and own again your control,
Escape is futile, and desire pointless,
Child, where else can you escape to?

On this beach shall isolation keep you warm,
Its fire breeding a simple poisoned grace,
Sneak past the shallow richness of the world,
Breathe out the wonder of the constellations you trace.
For out here in the perimeter there are no stars,
Out here you will only find yourself.

[Cluster VI]

Apocalypse Seizures

Feverish fears alight in 'dawn's new gaze',
What is to become of
this revolution we contemplate?
The drugs in our systems that free our thoughts,
Give us meaning and expose our faults.

The shackles we live in,
Our acceptance of preordained fate,
Not by God but by a mortal's affairs of state,
Is that all we live for?
To walk in pre-established files?
Is one's life so worthless
and this resistance a crime?

I want the 'richness'
written in all its overwhelming forms,
To live within the true realm of God
outside our apartheid norm.
The asylums we were promised,
voided by the demons we mourn,
Flaw in humanity's evolution,
the cliches carved on our tombstones.

To the sunshine child who thrives in this world,
Won't you taste my darkness
and make its optimism known?
There is far more to this side
than your kinfolk can see,
A vast ocean of spirituality
that makes me what i be.

So look within dear sunshine child,
And appreciate the pure God given truths,
Understand yourself, find your peace,
So that one day soon you may
pledge your remains to the truce.

[Cluster VI]

Wars Of Chastity

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Ode to none but God alone,
Past tense of misery, my brother i mourn,
The scars i keep concealed from harm,
Will drive me straight towards my lord's outstretched arms.

- 10/01/2001

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The future brings what only God may bring,
Turn to Him and weigh your offerings,
Freedom of thought and purity of soul,
These are the words that were always foretold,
The Ace of Spades is solely God's domain,
Science and religion, the king buried deep within,
Fingerprints of spirituality into which all life fades,
While we take out place as the Jack and Queen of Spades.

- 09/21/2001

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The scars of faith have been washed away,
The worth of words has a new fall from grace,
The wrath of time has drained me 'still',
The wounds remain but the demon's grace fulfilled.

- 10/03/2001

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Shine through the words you long to say,
Expel from your heart the non-believer's dismay,
They mean you no harm,
They just don't see,
What you are or what you long to be.

- 10/02/2001

[Cluster VI]

End Notes

Blinded by your fears you trample upon life,
Softly playing God with free unmoldable minds,
You harbor your thoughts
while you detain others who do the same,
What shallow spirituality
did you think we were living in?

Former words discounted and abandoned as a malady,
Another soft crunch on my desired spirituality,
I repeat myself
so strangers may see what you should have seen,
You destroyed a life to live out your stubborn fantasies.

How many lives will you ruin
with the softness of your touch?
How much chaos will you bring
to the next unsuspecting one?
I wish i could warn the world
against the vices of your kind,
But still i have this absence of hate holding me behind.

How many minds will you infect with your disease?
How many souls out there will you reduce to slavery?

[Cluster VI]

Dunpeal

Mighty Dhampir, lonely Dunpeal,
   Hunter of hunters, guardian of prey,
Solitary wanderer, his purpose to slay,
   His immortal lineage leading mortals astray.

To those he guards he reveals not himself,
   To those he hunts, their harbinger of death,
One-half human, the other half ghost,
   An immortal noble's nightmare, a symbiotic host.

What they ignorantly fear is his concealed identity,
   Left handed suppression their one genetic concern,
What they cannot touch they turn to demons,
   Shadowless reflection, sun-stroked and burned.

Under the guise of normality he lurks
   with his true form concealed,
Blood lust rider in the darkest of nights,
   this disgraced half-ling Dunpeal,
For sentenced is he by their dogmatic beliefs
   to the shape of their most common flaws,
For christened was he in a church legendary
   and cursed by existence and his dark cause.

"Roam our wastelands", they call to him,
   So both our tribes may see,
An unholy alliance, a prisoner of war,
   Wandering half-ling, mighty Dhampir you be.

This unwilling soldier of two warring creeds,
   His mere existence for both tribes surreal,
A future of neither kith nor kin,
   Mighty Dhampir or lonely Dunpeal?

[Cluster VI]

Dormant Lies The Killer

One-fourth of the dusk
   plagued by two-faced dispositions,
Two-fourths of a year
   spent behind this shallow despair,
How then shall you wander free
   without freedom within your reach?
Roaming the wastelands in iron shackles,
   with the aneurysms finally complete.

Long before these turbulent times,
   he consented to be content,
Long after his righteous crimes
   is revealed his truly psychotic intent,
That was before the cerebral throbbing
   while he still had sight of peace,
Before these countless errors occurred,
   rendering the saccharine asleep.

When his freedom is challenged he awakes again
   the demons that keep him safe,
When the seizures visit he revokes again
   his pleasantly concealed state,
To give birth again to the myths he tells,
   mocked by those without faith,
The slumber disturbed to bring forth again Judas,
   with yet another decided fate.

For dormant lies the rage he conceals
   so perfect in its revenge,
Tempered alive with ritualistic anger
   and provoked by his defeat,
For dormant lies the killer in him
   raging to be free,
Annoyed is the killer in him
   by these ill-fated 'abortions of bigotry'.

So rush now slowly to the execution
   and taste the flesh of what he be,
Dead again lies the peacekeeper,
   his purpose he sits down to weep,
So come forward you cannibalistic demon
   and fulfill your prophecy,
Burst into his fears, feed upon his pain,
   and cradle him to sleep...

[Cluster VI]

Evil You In Evil Me

Originally 'The Evil In you' by Ugly Raven.

You are the reason for my lunacy,
I am the devil you helped to create,
I was brought up with your sarcasm as your intended toilet,
Constantly fed with your arrogance and your shit.

I longed for a perfect life,
But my family was torn apart,
My revenge against all those in your image,
Be my blood by convention but let me be the flaw in your divine art.

You never let my piper believe in me,
I made myself what i am today,
A strong, numb and senseless being,
A beast with a mortal soul's desired meaning.

You can't kill me even if you tried,
For i am already dead,
If you knew what lies beneath my crooked gaze,
You'd choke on your turmoil for setting free the demon in me.

The clock will tick as always and my time will soon come,
My wrath shall be felt by your egocentric creed,
And recorded as the apocalypse.

[Cluster VI]

Rendition To Hate

Originally 'You wanna hate me' by Ugly Raven

It took me a lifetime to know you,
I trusted you with my soul,
You changed your ways within a fraction of a second,
Like the damned Lucifer on a blasphemous roll.

The world has blinded you from yourself,
You forget your past dawning a new tomorrow,
Now you shiver because you desire to hate me,
Because you think that you're content,
I know now why you want to hate me,
Isn't it for your sins that you wish to repent?

You believe in the lies you are told,
They comfort you and you withdraw from the truth,
Perhaps one day you will see the error of your ways again,
Because for now you still want to hate me,
Because i bring you closer to your true existence,
For i know now why you want to hate me,
And take comfort in the thought,
That i hate you too.

[Cluster VI]

Away From All Pretense

I had me three drops of blood,
Away from all pretense,
I had me strength, security and honor,
Away from all pretense,
I had me trust, respect and loyalty,
Away from all pretense,
It all shattered in a moment's time,
And now i drown in this wretched pretense.

I had me brothers in arms,
Away from all pretense,
I shared with them chasms of blood,
Away from all pretense,
One of us valued his life so little,
And now we rust away separately,
Buried deep into this world's pretense.

We've had to learn this new pretense,
From our pride washed away clean,
Thus now dwelling within the pretense of pretense,
Hoping i could once again be,
Away from this infernal pretense.

[Cluster VI]